Re: orthodox worship

Damian,

Thank you for your response to my post. It has been a while since I've actually ventured back to these threads, let alone post. I guess I've been in the "wilderness" for quite a while now.

The honest truth is I don't know where I am anymore. As Paul said (paraphrased of course) what I hate to do, I do, what I want to do, I do not. I feel like I am in a losing battle (for the first time in nearly 3 years). It is as if the enemy is always one, or two, or three steps ahead of me. There was I time I almost looked forward to the spiritual warfare I encountered, hence the "gods_archer" name. I was in constant and continual prayer, and God seemed to always be there.

But now, after almost a full year of not being in a "church home", I feel alone, confused, and lost - all over again. I know God is there for me and my family, His blessings show everywhere in our lives, but for me personally, it is almost like I am just enjoying the benefits of my wife's relationship with Him.

I am finding it more and more difficult to pray anymore, like there is a deaf ear turned towards me, hindering me, and I am tired, so tired of all the inner-fighting going on inside of me. I am at my wits end: what was my "unforgivable sin"?

Oh well, I guess I have said way too much at this point. Sorry that I got off on a tangent. I really just wanted to say that you understood my first post quite well, and you have answered a lot of questions for me. Thank you.

In Christ's Name,

Nick