Oh how I understand your situation Theo! The first thing I encourage you to do is to stick with it and be bold in your prayers!
I know what it is like to be very dissatisfied with the way Protestant's worship. It is scary to come to the realisation that Protestantism is wrong. In a way it turns our worlds upside down. But God does it by His Grace to lead us to the Truth.
Theo, the one thing I stress to you is that you find a faithful Priest who can introduce you to Orthodoxy face to face. That is what helped me. Go and talk to him and let hime guide you slowly into the Truth (you can never take it all at once).
Orthodoxy is a totally different worldview to Protestantism, you can't find it by the same rationalistic categories that Protestantism uses. You need to experience it and be changed.
Pax,
Robbie
